Part 2: Re-Clocking: What I Actually Did

DATE: 2026-02-14

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In Part 1, I recognized the parallel: my nervous system (after developmental trauma and Complex PTSD) was experiencing timebase error. Perfectly functional responses clocked against old threats instead of present safety. Recognition changes your relationship to symptoms. But recognition alone doesn’t regulate a nervous system.

You still need a stable reference to re-clock against.

Building Your Internal Sync Generator

In video, the TBC forces unstable signals to align with a master clock. In nervous system work, you build that clock yourself.

Breath.

Not deep breathing exercises. Just noticing the breath that’s already there. The one thing that’s always in the present moment. Gil Fronsdal calls it “coming home to the body.”

Body sensations.

Grounding in “what is,” not “what was.” Temperature of hands. Pressure of feet on floor. Texture of fabric. These don’t lie about when you are.

Safe relationships.

Co-regulation with another nervous system. Sitting with someone whose presence feels steady. Borrowing their nervous system as a temporary master clock. Like genlocking to an external reference in video. Your nervous system literally synchronizes to theirs. Mirrored breathing. Shared rhythm.

Co-regulation before self-regulation.

Meditation.

Not to “calm down.” To notice: “Racing heart. Shallow breath. Old danger pattern.” The witness is the stable reference point.

Group meditation.

The group’s discipline to stay present together. Not matching each other’s nervous systems, but role modeling regulation. Eighty people sitting, breathing, noticing. Some steady, some struggling. The collective field becomes the reference.

You don’t borrow someone else’s calm. You witness their willingness to sit with whatever arises. The group’s commitment to stay there (in the room, in the body, in the present) becomes the sync signal.

Different from co-regulation. You’re not entraining to another person’s rhythm. You’re synchronizing to the shared discipline of showing up and staying present.

These aren’t relaxation techniques. They’re synchronization tools.

The Complication the Metaphor Reveals

In video, there’s an objective master clock. Everyone locks to the same reference.

In trauma recovery, your “house sync” is contested territory.

What if your breath feels dangerous (dissociation trigger)? What if “safe” relationships never existed in your developmental history, so you have no template to recognize them? What if meditation reveals that the witness itself is constructed from trauma responses?

This is where the analogy breaks and becomes more useful.

You’re not just re-clocking to a stable reference. You’re building the reference while simultaneously using it.

Like trying to calibrate a sync generator using the same unstable signal you’re trying to stabilize. The feedback loop is recursive: you use somatic presence to detect safety, but you need safety to build somatic presence.

You don’t start with a perfect reference. You start with “good enough.” A therapist’s nervous system. A meditation teacher’s voice. The memory of one moment when you felt safe. You genlock to that, stabilize slightly, then build from there.

Your internal sync generator isn’t installed all at once. It’s grown through approximation. Like training a Phase-Locked Loop that slowly narrows its tracking error over time.

When a Trauma Response Fires

The old pattern:

Trigger hits
Full activation (heart racing, tunnel vision, freeze)
React from trauma time
Shame spiral afterward

The re-clocked pattern:

Trigger hits
Notice the activation (“My heart is racing, hands are cold”)
Buffer it (pause, don’t react immediately)
Re-clock it (“This feeling is old danger. Right now, I’m safe.”)
Respond from the present, not the past

What this actually feels like:

A conversation where someone’s tone becomes confrontational. My nervous system reads it as angry and belittling. My chest tightens. Breath gets shallow. Vision blurs, edges soften. The room feels distant. I’m 8 again, bracing for punishment that isn’t actually happening.

Old pattern: I’d defend immediately, voice tight, overexplaining. Or freeze completely and spiral later.

Now: I notice my hands are cold. I feel my feet on the floor. I take one breath. The blur is still there, but I’m still here. I wait three seconds. Then I respond to what was actually said, not to the threat I felt.

It doesn’t feel calm. It feels like manually overriding an alarm that’s screaming “DANGER.” But the override works. The alarm stops controlling the output.

The trauma memory doesn’t disappear. But it stops controlling present-moment timing.

This is the work I did—through therapy, retreat practice, hundreds of repetitions. It doesn’t stay this effortful. Over time, the override becomes more automatic. The gap between activation and response lengthens naturally. What once required conscious intervention becomes learned capacity. Not effortless, but easier.

EMDR: Bilateral Stabilization

Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing (EMDR) is the closest clinical analog to a Phase-Locked Loop I’ve experienced.

Over a few years of EMDR work with a very skilled therapist, I used handheld devices that sent pulses through each hand in alternating patterns. Left, then right, then left. The bilateral stimulation forces alternating activation of left/right brain hemispheres. Like a stabilizing oscillation in an electronic circuit. Prevents runaway feedback.

Allows you to process traumatic memory while staying anchored in present safety.

Re-clocks the memory: “This happened then. I’m safe now.”

In video terms, EMDR is like running a corrupted signal through a TBC while simultaneously viewing it on a monitor. You’re watching the degraded footage (traumatic memory) while the system actively re-syncs it to clean house sync (present moment safety).

The memory doesn’t disappear. But it stops triggering as if it’s happening now.

Somatic Resourcing: Corrective Input

Through somatic trauma work, I learned that re-regulation isn’t about eliminating trauma responses. It’s about re-clocking them against a stable present-moment reference.

Somatic resourcing: “What in this moment feels safe?”

Not “what’s pleasant” or “what’s comfortable.” Just: what’s actually safe right now. Corrective input to counter the threat signal.

Vagal toning: Strengthen the parasympathetic “brake.”

Humming, singing. Cold water on wrists. Anything that activates the vagus nerve. Biological corrective mechanism.

You’re not eliminating the threat-detection system. You’re restoring the feedback loop that brings it back to baseline.

Increasing Gain on the Present

I had a noisy floor. The background hum of hypervigilance, intrusive memories, and chronic threat detection drowned out present-moment experience.

The work wasn’t just re-clocking. It was increasing the gain on the present signal so it could be distinguished from the background noise of past danger.

Sensory anchoring amplified present-moment input. Five senses check: What do I see, hear, smell, taste, touch right now? Increases signal strength of “here and now.”

Repetition and ritual created a clean reference signal. I meditated twice a day—Vipassana and Metta meditation together. Not as relaxation practice—as synchronization practice. Predictable patterns became a strong “sync generator” signal.

This is optimizing signal-to-noise ratio. When the present moment signal is strong enough, the noise of the past becomes background, not foreground.

Years Later

I still get hypervigilant in certain settings. I still have moments where my nervous system generates full-scale threat responses to things that aren’t dangerous.

The difference is timing.

Instead of interpreting every moment through the lens of old danger, I can mostly stay in the present. Notice the activation. Acknowledge it. Re-clock it.

“Thank you, nervous system. I see you’re trying to protect me. That threat was real then. It’s not here now.”

The picture still has some jitter. But it doesn’t roll anymore.